Sogan Rinpoche has been trying to get us an audience with His Holiness, the Dalai Lama. Last night I got back to the room, completely wiped out, and found that today was to be the day. No kidding. Everyone was euphoric, in a state of disbelief. It's as though someone had said you could meet with the Buddha himself (actually the Tibetans consider His Holiness to be a reincarnation of Avoliketeshvara - the Buddha of great compassion.) There was a quick primer on how to act, what to bring, how to dress (clean clothes), and the need for Katags (pronounced Katas) - the ceremonial scarves that you offer His Holiness, and wrap anything to be blessed. We all ran out at 9 PM in search of Katags and bought several.
I slept well, despite the anticipation, and after breakfast joined in a walk down to His Holiness' residence. Along the way I picked up a Thangka (a ceremonial hanging) of Avoliketeshvara to be blessed, and brought a few other things as well. An offering envelop was required for the cash offering (optional, but certainly in good taste). Around 10:15 we met up at the main temple gates and proceeded en masse to the security checkpoint.
No cameras are allowed inside of security for the teachings so we weren't going to be able to take pictures, but somehow this seemed appropriate - if all reality is transitory and subject to mental interpretation, and if we all meet each other infinite times in all our lives, why should we expect a photo of this auspicious event? Somehow, I think, to have such a picture would demean the experience (I discuss this with Henny who agrees), but also somehow I think to myself - I'd like a photo - that way I can look at it and tell myself that it really happened. But who knows?
After going through security (where everyone's carefully wrapped items for blessing had to be unwrapped and inspected) we proceeded to the gate house of His Holiness' residence.
Each day for the teachings the Dalai Lama exits from a large gate in a wall at the back of the temple - the gate opens into the teaching area, a wide expanse in front of the Temple itself, and is placed in a gatehouse centered on a wall across the back of the teaching space. On the right hand side is a small building that I hadn't noticed before, and into this we had to go, fill out additional forms, and then wait.
All this time I was trying to keep my composure and think good thoughts for His Holiness, avoid anxiety (will we get in, boy there are a lot of other people here too, what happpens behind the curtains we obviously have to go through…). Finally we were ushered in through what would have been a good security point at an airport. Metal detectors, people frisking you again, unwrapping the items for blessing again, sighing your name in the guest book, and then you're out into a courtyard behind the wall.
It was beautiful in there - trees and light colored buildings, pale yellow butterflies winging through the air, a gentle breeze keeping us cool. Juxtaposing this, armed sentinels from the Indian Security Forces, His Holiness' own security with Uzis at the ready - it brings tears to my eyes just to think someone would want to harm this man, but I guess that's the world we live in.
A moment of confusion - there's a table with items obviously positioned for blessing, we begin piling our various things on the table, only to be told no, we should bring these with us. Gathering everything up, we're lead to a stone wall along the path that leads to His Holiness' residence. It's cool in the shade as we wait and looking up at His residence I can see movement through the windows - nothing more than silhouettes, but it occurs to me that we're probably looking at him getting ready. There are about 45 people in front of us and maybe 10 behind us as suddenly the coordinator motions for us to proceed up the hill - "quickly, quickly". Somehow, I don't know how or why, I'm at the head of our group as we get in line. This doesn't feel right - as if somehow the honor should go to someone else, someone part of Sogan Rinpoche’s core group.
At the top of the hill it's sunny, and hot. There He is under a multicolored umbrella standing in front of His residence with His retinue. Groups are processed efficiently, and before I'm ready it's our turn.
What do you say to a living Buddha? What would you ask for in terms of a blessing? My eyes tear as I walk towards Him, I'm completely overwhelmed, almost speechless, it's all I can do to stutter out "Your Holiness” as he takes my shoulder and then I'm standing next to him on the left, the other 13 of us gather around him and it turns out you could take a camera after all - someone from the group behind us (From Romania of all places - we got copies of the pictures a month or so later) agrees to take our photo and mail it to us, and we pose with His Holiness for a photo.
After this things get confused - His Holiness looks about and says "All Buddhists?" to which we all nod our heads vigorously. He grasps my hands after taking a small golden Buddha, placing it atop his head, and then hands it to me, blessing the Buddha, me, and the things I've brought. And it's over. Tears stream down my cheeks as I head back down the hill. Everyone I'm with is speechless - even now, almost six hours later I can't begin to express the event, what happened in my head, to those around me. Mostly I remember the butterflies and His Holiness' smile.
Waterfall climbing
After meeting with His Holiness, somehow I needed to get away - the thought of sitting through another day of teachings was more than I could face. Dale agreed, and the two of us headed off to climb a waterfall that lies beyond Bhagshu - a short walk (2-3 KM) away. The road to Bhagshu is dusty, and auto rickshaws fly by, kicking up more dust and driving you near the edge of the road, where a steep slope / cliff rolls downwards, perhaps 400-500 feet to the river valley below, which opens eventually into the Kangra valley by Dharamsala some 4000 feet lower. Across from us are terraced mountain slopes - some green, some not, with houses aloft, perhaps a thousand feet above us below the ridgeline. Small trails, seemingly fit for goats at best, lead up from the valley floor to the homes.
For some reason a black dog decides to adopt us for our walk, accompanying us along the way. His tongue hangs out and he pants in the heat – it’s a real scorcher today. He castes looks back our way as if to say - speed it up, his paws leaving imprints in the red clay-dust road.
Below, in the valley, we can see a camping park - "Nature Camping" a sign implores the passer by to drop down and check it out. 4 or five large tents are strung up, with a couple of stone buildings that probably are the concession stand and the bathing facilities.
We wind our way through Bhagshu, a Hindu town in the fits of expansion - many multistoried buildings - hotels, restaurants, shops, under construction by the auto-rickshaw stand. Dale stops to admire the stonework covering the brickwork behind - things here are definitely upscale - polished marble, nice lighting, swept and clean. A stark contrast to the McLeod Ganj we've left behind.
Further through the town, down twisting paths of stone slab with vendors’ wares out for nobody in the streets we reach a pool with monks cavorting about in the cold water. Little girls wander about in their finest clothes - this is clearly a resort town. Through a small gate in the wall and we're on the path to the waterfall. Past a sign painted in clear black letters, very serious - "Do not go to the waterfalls, the path is very dangerous."

Ignoring the sign we walk on. A crooked broken path once paved with flagstones taken from the scree along the waterfall's course - you can see the tumbledown piles of it off in the distance - leads up and up to the first waterfall, perhaps a 500 foot climb over 1 - 2 kilometers. Stairs, crumbling here, non-existent there, turn to dirt and dust under countless feet and the many annual freezings and thawings. This is a new path - the concrete attests to that - but somehow the flagstones have been pried up - to support the bustling growth back in the village?
At the base of the final climb to the top of the first waterfall (there are many along the watercourse, stretching up to probably 7000 feet), there is a stone shack selling the usual bottled water, juices and snacks, with something new - here you can paint flat stones and leave them. The area is covered with stones in bright primary colors - some with designs, others with words - words in many different languages - English, Hindi, Tibetan, German, French, Arabic, Hebrew, an occasional Russian. All striving for something original to say, somehow a microcosm of the Dharamsala experience - the polyglot, multicultural pop-like culture that permeates this valley and its towns. From inside the shack waft strains of Pink Floyd - somehow not out of place - and several people, dressed in appropriately bright colors, paint their rocks - I think they're speaking Hebrew.
We climb.
Rocks, tumble down, huge, slides of shale on the sides, blue slate, yellow quartz, huge boulders driven into place by forces unimaginable. Stacked high, climbing, the falls stretch to the sky, one after another as far as you can see. Snow melt - frigid water to cool my feet, hot from the climb.
We rest.
Up on top of the first course there is a group of young Hindi men - early 20s at best - perhaps late teens, lounging in the warm sun and cold waters. They eye us and several nod their heads with a "Namaste." Later I'll debate foreign policy and universal disdain of George W with one of them, but for now we reply with our own "Namaste". They continue lounging. We hike on.
I've been nervous on the broken path leading up to here - the loose rocks and dirt seemed to be conspiring to hurl me to my demise down the hundred some odd foot drop to the bottom of the fall, but here I feel like a nimble mountain goat - leaping from boulder to boulder in the blinding sun, scaling that 45 degree rock the size of a house - casually tossed there by the water melt eons ago - or maybe this spring with the winter melt.
Little pools frequent the course and we stop frequently to rest and catch our breath. We hit the second waterfall, smaller than the first, but more difficult to get to the top of. There's no path. My fingers merge with bare rock finding crevasses and hand holds the bare eye cannot perceive as I pull myself up ever larger verticals. My confidence builds with each conquest - I'm able to take on climbs I wouldn't have dreamed of even moments before. I'm frightfully aware that we're miles from anywhere, up a creek and waterfall course and I'm not sure how / if they'd be able to get me out of here with a broken leg - somehow I'm assured in my grip and footing.
I dance - leaping from pointed rock to the net - arms outstretched to maintain my balance. I can remember dreaming of flying - this is about as close as I've come.
We crest the third waterfall. On our left are the ruins of a small stone building, or perhaps one under construction. It's maybe 20 feet up a grassy slope / cliff on what looks to be the only flat piece of earth out of the flood plane. Nothing more than rocks piled one atop the other, the roof is missing - if ever it was there. A low stone wall, with a hole in it for the path, or handholds better - for the climb down to the water course – surrounds the grassy tabletop. Four young western women, accompanied by two western men make their appearance as the scale their way down from this spot, accompanied by a small crowd of youthful Hindis.
Hindi men seem fascinated by western women - they'll stop everything they're doing to watch or follow them. We saw this outside of Chandrigarh, and today is no different - as we climb in separate groups - Dale & I, the women and their escorts, and the 6, no 8, no 10 (the number seems to be growing like bees attracted to honey) Hindis - the men joke and boisterously clown about - vying for attention like so many adolescents. Irene tells me (after 6 months traveling India by herself) that she's been accosted several times, but all she has to do is loudly call out their unwanted advances and touches (nothing too serious- a touch on the arm, grasping her hand) and the attention of the crowd is enough to shame the miscreant back into place. "They're like little boys," she tells me. Apparently it's a huge social faux pas to touch a woman. Here I think we have American cinema in action - we portray, certainly by Indian standards, loose women as a norm in our films and I think they're seeing for themselves. But I digress.


Soon we come to some heads carved out of the boulders- a large Chinese looking head made out of one huge slab, and what looks like an American Indian carved out of some quartz laden rock.
Dale & I have been climbing non-stop for some time and decide to stop to rest.
I take off my shirt and sandals and lie back on a warm flat rock.
After a few minutes I decide to take pictures of the carven heads and begin snapping away (a digital camera is a joy to have - take as many as you'd like, just erase the ones that don't come out.)
We're passed by the westerners - now that I can hear them talking I can tell they're German (actually as things turned out they were German and Israeli).
One offers to snap a picture of me with the carved head and struggles with the camera, before realizing she's taken three pictures.
I thank her and examine the pictures.
Later I’ll return the favor up the waterfall, and offer my email to her friend to write me and have me send it to her (If you’re reading this email me and I’ll send it to you…)

So I've lost something like 40 pounds in the past year and a half, been practicing yoga for over a year, and still have a folded stomach in the picture - time to do more sit ups I guess.
My pride / self image is wounded by what I see in the picture - slouched over (to get close to the head) I paint a scary picture of the middle age condition.
But enough self pity / awareness...

We climb much higher to where the watercourse splits - on the left - a series of three water falls falling 300 - 500 feet - a mountain goat could climb up there.
To the right I climb about 50 feet up tumbled boulders (the largest so far) and come to a gently valley - it's sides covered by rhododendrons in full glorious neon red bloom.
Several pictures later I return to find Dale scaling the water course’s opposite wall.
I rest a while, while Dale explores above. Looking at the small waterfall in front of me I discern a rainbow in the water vapor and try my hand and photographing it.
Here we stop and rest - we could keep going but I've lost my water bottle somewhere below, left to get a grip on a rock and now I can't remember or find it. Painfully aware of my thirst, it’s time to head back. Strangely I'm reluctant to partake of the Himalayan snowmelt waters that course all about me - this is probably about the cleanest water on earth and I'm too worried about errant microbes to try it.
We descend quickly - now looking into the sun - practically blinded during the climb down. This is the dangerous part. I keep telling myself - gravity's working for me, pulling me down, it'd be hard to stop if I had to. I'm tired and prone to mistakes. But I fly - jumping from rock to rock, sliding - on my butt - down 60 degree rocks to land on a flat rock below.
We descend to the first water fall where I find the same group of Hindis, and an Irish girl (maybe 19, maybe 20) named Alma. Alma's staying in Bhagshu (not attending the teachings) and has been living in Shanghai and other places in China for the past year. It seems she's gradually making her way back to the Emerald Isle.
Enter Sanjay. Sanjay is 18, maybe 20 years old. He comes over and squats next to us (actually next to me - Alma is on a rock about 6 feet higher than I am). Directly in front of us is a small pool of water, captured by the rocks and silty sediment before it takes its final cascade over the falls into the valley below. Amazingly there's a tadpole - trying to hide beneath a rock from my prying eyes.
Sanjay's skin is dark, his teeth crooked and parted in the middle - a little yellow. His smile is endearing as he looks me in the eyes and says very directly, opening a conversation - "I hate USC."
I'm somewhat taken aback - here I am deep in India - almost in Kashmir - and Sanjay not only has heard of USC, but knows he hates it. I want to ask if maybe he prefers CalPoly?, but instead answer, somewhat flippantly, "that's ok, I'm from Northern California."
"No - I hate USC"
"OK"
"No - U ... S .... A"
It takes a moment for this to process. What is Sanjay, with the engaging smile and his 3 companions trying to do here? Suddenly I realize I'm the only person, other than Alma, in sight here, above a 100 foot waterfall. Later I realize that he was trying to showoff for Alma, like his friends were doing jumping and yelling and smartalecking around, but for now I'm a little uneasy.
"So why do you hate the USA?" I ask.
"George Bush."
And then out comes a combination of national pride and disdain for American Foreign Policy. According to Sanjay, the US is a coward - fighting third rate countries like Iraq and Afghanistan, while avoiding a more substantive and manly / heroic fight with real military nations. Further, we're ignoring the center of terrorism, where Sanjay personally assures me he KNOWS Osama bin Laden is clothed, hidden and cared for, that is Pakistan. Why don't we take them on? We're cowards, that's why, come fight India and we'll show you a real war.
I'm really staggered - this incredibly articulate youth is doing his best to get me riled up. So I take a tact he probably never expected me to take - I agree with him. Except.... I ask him why the US would want to attack India? He had no good answer, save perhaps, youthful bravado. I asked him not to imagine that all Americans support W in his Empire building, his mad rush to war, and ill-conceived thoughts of an occupational peace. I tell him of the millions of Americans that marched against the war, but his eyes glaze over (I think in retrospect this was the wrong tact - he wanted to talk about war - not peace). He still insisted "I hate USA", but then got to the point - he wants the US to attack Pakistan from the West with India attacking from the East.
To finish the conversation he abruptly left - leaving me to discuss chads, how Florida isn't the largest US state, and the electoral college to Alma - only to return a few moments later with some freshly picked rhododendron flower clusters. Two, shyly, for Alma, one, almost as a peace offering, to me.
His final words were "I make a joke to you", as I shook his hand and wished him the best. As I left Alma was immersed in conversation with the now seemingly harmless Sanjay and his friends. I later gave the blooms to a little girl - daughter of a street vendor in Bhagshu - large brown eyes in a small brown face, looking in wonder from the flowers to me, back to the flowers. Her smile gave our hike / climb its final closure. A great afternoon all in all.